“In me is thy own defeat of self.”
-Rabindranath Tagore
The hardest thing is to know thyself. So humbly describing mine mirror image, don’t think that I’m boosting myself in myriad notes.
What I’m today is entirely due to my KARMA, what I’ll be in future depends on what I do now.
Academic Qualification:
On 12th day of the month of November, 1990, I came into this world. Since then, nineteen years have passed and I’m today pursuing BBA (H) from NSHM.
I had the sheer luck of being a student of a well reputed school ST.Xavier’s. While in school I used to be the most mischievous boy of the class always breaking rules, for which I got punished often, but quite popular among friends. I was weak in studies, failed once in class seven, but never gave up, did hold myself tight through the ropes and did manage to climb the top of the mountain by passing the ICSE EXAMS. I do miss those days….
Latter I had my high school from Bidhan Chandra Institution a WBHS affiliated school. So until now these are my academic qualifications.
My favourite subjects are ENGLISH, COMPUTER, ACCOUNTANCY and Statistics. My aim in life is to be a Company Secretary.
Likes & Dislikes:
I do find passion in listening music (they range from bollywood top charts, RABINDRA And SHYAMA Sangeet, to old Hindi songs), Watching movies (Favourite movies are Day After Tomorrow, Stallone Rambo, etc), television (News channels, Discovery, National Geographic, Colours), reading magazines, newspaper, poetry(especially of Shakespeare, Rabindranath Tagore, H.W.Longfellow, William Wordsworth, Rudyard Kipling) ,playing chess, used to play soccer, cricket and table tennis a long time ago, riding bikes, adventure, travelling, and photography.
I make friends less, but still with whom I make friendship, I do find great pleasure to hang out with them, and never ever lose sight of them. I have already gained an unsocial status for not attending parties. Though I have always led a normal lifestyle but still don’t run behind trifles. I don’t take advice and neither give it, I take my own decisions. In my opinion silence is the best answer and smiling is the best reaction. I dislike overqualified Engineers and MBA students who have a degree to prove their incompetence, but do like Entrepreneurs, Chartered Accountants and Teachers. I’m only impressed by people who are kind, fair and true. I do suffer from venustraphobia (excessive fear of beautiful women). I do admire My Father, but don’t want to be like him.
From my past relationships I have learnt that never do stalk a girl it freaks her out. Majority only love money, so beware of them. If you love something set it free if it comes back to you it loves you else it was never meant for you. There are some people, who have this to regret, that too often when they loved, they even didn’t say so.
My Character:
I am neither especially clever nor especially gifted, I am only very, very curious.. I do stay away from the crowd, don’t laugh at others misfortune. Keep my head calm, though sometimes rude. I’m kind, lenient, jolly, fair and square, arrogant, shy, punctual, clever and fool, tidy, a bit lethargic, saccharine (excessively sentimental),incompetent and well mannered. I do believe in non-violence, have sympathy for the poor and never bend before insolent might. I’m to somewhat extent honest and dishonest. Dishonest because I belief that “Everything is fair in love and war”. I do also sometimes lie.
I mix with different type of people. Some find me interesting and some dull. Some bless some curse. Some consider me as friend some enemy. There are people who do take advantage of my good and harm; still I forgive them because however hard I try to take revenge or do any harm to them, I can’t. In past, I had committed mistakes, but have learnt from them.
Have you seen anybody perfect? Probably the answer is none; as if there could be any conception of light without a conception of darkness! All men are bad and in their badness reign. In the same way, I do also have positive and negative qualities. I’m trying to entirely burn the bad momentum, so that ultimately in the long run, the good prevail over bad and form the Samskaras, which will reflect my character. I’ve had enough of boring and disgusting things, so I’m in the hunt for truth. The day I’ll realise the truth, on that day I’ll stand up and say,” here is the Self”. Easier said than done, as only a few have attained. I’m working hard; let's see what type of fruit my karma bears!
Till then, I have to knock at every alien door to come to my own, and have to wander through all the outer worlds to reach the innermost shine at the end.
Precisely, I have failed in every aspect of life and even to recognize myself and often think, what type of person I’m growing up to be? Simply I know nothing as I’m only a parrot. I’m an ignorant, that has lost his skills, and still indulge in self praise. It’s not my fault because we are a nation of braggarts; and thus taught wrong. Days come and ages pass and I find myself in many a guise, in many a rapture of joy and sorrow. I never did expect this sort of life and thus hate myself. I consider life as gauche and keep reflecting on these lines -
“That I should make much of myself and turn it on all sides'
Thus casting coloured shadows on thy radiance
-----Such is thy Maya.
Thou settest a barrier in thine own being
And then callest thy severed self in myriad notes.
This is thy self -separation has taken body in me."
